HARD DAY TODAY

YOU KNOW TODAY I HAVE BEEN DEPRESSED. WHY I DON'T KNOW I REALLY DON'T HAVE ANY REASON TO BE DEPRESSED. I HAVE NOT HAD A DAY OF DEPRESSION LIKE THIS IN A LONG TIME,

I GET FRUSTRATED SOMETIMES BECAUSE SOME PEOPLE TELL ME THAT I SHOULD HAVE THE JOY OF THE LORD AND NOT BE DEPRESSED. I DO HAVE THE JOY KNOWING MY SINS ARE FORGIVEN AND THAT I HAVE A ETERNAL HOME WITH JESUS. I AM HAPPY WHAT GOD IS DOING IN MY NEPHEWS LIFE AND THAT OF HIS WIFE AND KIDS. BUT TODAY I STILL FIND MYSELF DEPRESSED. SOMEONE TOLD ME THAT I WAS UNGRATEFUL FOR WHAT GOD HAS DONE LATELY BY ALLOWING MYSELF TO BE DEPRESSED. SO NOW THAT JUST MADE ME FEEL GUILTY.

I DON'T WANT TO BE UNGRATEFUL, AND HONESTLY DON'T THINK I AM. ANYONE WHO DEALS WITH DEPRESSION ON A DAILY BASIS AS I DO, KNOWS THAT YOU CAN NOT ALWAYS HELP THE WAY YOU FEEL. I DO ALL THE THINGS I KNOW TO DO AND THAT IS TO FEED GODS WORD INTO MY SPIRIT. SO TODAY I HAVE BEEN READING THE WORD WHEN I WAS NOT WORKING. I KNOW THAT EVEN IF I AM DEPRESSED IT GETS INTO MY SPIRIT.

I JUST HATE IT WHEN PEOPLE TRY TO LAY TRIPS ON ME. I KNOW WHERE MY HEART IS WITH GOD AND I KNOW THAT I ALSO HAVE A DEPRESSION PROBLEM AND MOST DAYS DON'T GIVE INTO IT. BUT SOME DAYS IT IS JUST HARD. HERE IS WHAT I HAVE BEEN READING TODAY, IT IS A HELP SINCE THE NIGHTMARES HAVE COME BACK AS WELL.

Psalm 91
Safety of Abiding in the Presence of God
1 He who dwells in the secret place of the Most High
Shall abide under the shadow of the Almighty.
2 I will say of the LORD, “He is my refuge and my fortress;
My God, in Him I will trust.”

3 Surely He shall deliver you from the snare of the fowler[a]
And from the perilous pestilence.
4 He shall cover you with His feathers,
And under His wings you shall take refuge;
His truth shall be your shield and buckler.
5 You shall not be afraid of the terror by night,
Nor of the arrow that flies by day,
6 Nor of the pestilence that walks in darkness,
Nor of the destruction that lays waste at noonday.

7 A thousand may fall at your side,
And ten thousand at your right hand;
But it shall not come near you.
8 Only with your eyes shall you look,
And see the reward of the wicked.

9 Because you have made the LORD, who is my refuge,
Even the Most High, your dwelling place,
10 No evil shall befall you,
Nor shall any plague come near your dwelling;
11 For He shall give His angels charge over you,
To keep you in all your ways.
12 In their hands they shall bear you up,
Lest you dash your foot against a stone.
13 You shall tread upon the lion and the cobra,
The young lion and the serpent you shall trample underfoot.

14 “Because he has set his love upon Me, therefore I will deliver him;
I will set him on high, because he has known My name.
15 He shall call upon Me, and I will answer him;
I will be with him in trouble;
I will deliver him and honor him.
16 With long life I will satisfy him,
And show him My salvation.”