JUST MY THOUGHTS

I AM SITTING HERE. TONIGHT IN THE DARKEST PLACE I HAVE EVER BEEN IN. I CAN NOT MAKE SENSE OF ANYTHING ANYMORE. I AM MY OWN WORST ENEMY SOMETIMES. BUT I JUST CAN NOT TAKE IT ANYMORE LIKE IT IS NOW. ONE FAILURE AFTER ANOTHER. NO ONE TO JUST SAY HEY LETS GO FOR COFFEE. I LOVE ALL MY CYBER FRIENDS. I HONESTLY DO. AND TIME AFTER TIME YOU HAVE BEEN THERE FOR ME. I WONT DENY THAT. AM I WRONG TO WANT REAL LIVE HUMAN CONTACT I DON'T KNOW ANYMORE. I THINK THAT EMAIL AND INSTANT MESSAGEING HAS TAKEN OVER NO ONE TALKS ON THE PHONE EVEN ANYMORE EVERYTHING IS DONE ON THE COMPUTER... SO LESS AND LESS HUMAN CONTACT. AS MUCH AS I LOVE CHIP HE CAN NOT GO OUT WITH ME. IM TIRED OF FEELING LESS OF A PERSON THAN OTHER PEOPLE. IM TIRED OF BEING MADE TO FEEL LIKE A PIECE OF CRAP IN MY OWN HOME. IM TIRED OF PAYING ALL THE BILLS AND BEING IGNORED. FACE IT I AM JUST TIRED. WELL ANYWAY I WON'T GO ON AND ON BUT THIS IS WHY I HAVE NOT BEEN MAKING POST I JUST DON'T KNOW ANYMORE.