EVER HAVE ONE OF THOSE DAYS

MY DAY STARTED OUT GOOD. i WENT TO A BIBLE STUDY AND CCLAGUNA OK I WILL CALL IT KINGSFIELD THAT IS THE NEW NAME. THEN I CAME HOME AFTER MY LESSONS AND THERE WAS A MESSAGE ON MY HOME PHONE FROM A MAN WHO LIVES IN MICHIGAN THIS MAN WAS MY DAD'S BEST FRIEND. HE ALSO WAS A PARTNER WITH MY DAD SOMETIMES WHEN IT CAME TO ME. OH FIRST I NEED TO TELL YOU THAT WHEN I GOT HOME A PACKAGE CAME FOR ME IN THE MAIL WITH NO ADDRESS ON IT AS TO WHO IT WAS FROM. IT WAS ABOUT THE SIZE OF A SHOE BOX. SO I OPENED IT. AND INSIDE WERE PICTURES OF WELL LETS JUST SAY THINGS MY DAD SHOULD NOT OF BEEN DOING TO ME. HOW IS THAT FOR NOT BEING TO GRAPHIC. THEN LATER IS WHEN THE CALL CAME IT WAS ___________ HE SAID DID YOU GET MY PACKAGE. THE SOUND OF HIS VOICE SENT CHILLS UP AND DOWN MY SPINE. I JUST FROZE. THE SOUND OF HIS VOICE BROUGHT BACK SOME REALLY OLD FEELINGS I FELT LIKE I WAS GOING TO BE SICK. MY STOMACH STILL HURTS AND MY NERVES ARE STILL ON PINS AND NEEDLES RIGHT NOW. HE DOES NOT HAVE MY CELL NUMBER SO I AM ONLY ANSWERING MY CELL PHONE I TURNED MY HOME PHONE OFF. I HAVE TRIED TO PUT IT OUT OF MY MIND I REALLY HAVE. BUT I JUST KEEP HEARING HIS VOICE OVER AND OVER AND OVER. FINALLY I SPOKE TO HIM AND SAID HOW DID YOU GET MY NEW ADDRESS AND PHONE NUMBER HE SAID ______GAVE IT TO ME I HAVE BEEN TALKING TO HER ALL ALONG I KNOW WHERE YOU LIVE AND EVERYHING. OK THAT SCARED ME AND STILL DOES. WHEN I MOVE MY SISTER WILL NEVER KNOW WHERE I AM AT. HE SAID HE WAS IN CALIFORNIA AND WANTED TO SEE ME. I SAID THAT WILL NEVER HAPPEN HE SAID LIKE I SAID I KNOW WHERE YOU LIVE. SO I CALLED THE POLICE AND THEY HAVE A REPORT I TOLD THEM I DO NOT KNOW IF HE REALLY IS HERE OR NOT, BUT WANTED TO REPORT IT ANYWAY. THEY ASKED WHO THIS GUY WAS AND I TOLD THEM AND THEY SAID IF I WANTED TO I COULD GET A RESTRAINING ORDER BUT IT TAKES 3 DAYS.

OK MY DEAR FRIENDS HERE ON THE BLOG I NEED SOME PRAYER, I HATE TO ADMIT IT BUT WHEN I LEFT TO GO TO THE STORE I WAS LOOKING OVER MY SHOULDER NOW AND I KNOW GOD DOES NOT WANT ME TO WALK IN FEAR. THIS IS ALL A BIT TOO MUCH CONSIDERING SOME OTHER THING THAT HAPPEN IN THE LAST MONTH. OK SORRY I WILL STOP RAMBLING. OUTSIDE OF TALKING TO JESUS ABOUT IT. I KNEW I COULD COME TO YOU ALL. FOR ANYONE WHO DOES NOT KNOW THE STORY OF MY DAD YOU CAN GO UNDER OLD POST IN MARCH AND READ MY TESTIMONY PART ONE AND TWO AND YOU WILL SEE WHY I AM SO AFRAID OF THIS MAN.