TIM IS STILL HANGING IN THERE. STILL NO MAJOR DECISIONS HAVE BEEN MADE. IF THEY HAVE TO TAKE MORE OF HIS LEGS OR NOT.
MY DECISION IS THAT I HAVE LEFT MY CHURCH AND MAY NOT GO TO ANOTHER ONE AT ALL. I AM TIRED OF CRAP TIRED OF REJECTION. I TRY AND TRY TO FIT IN, BUT UNLESS YOU LOOK A CERTAIN WAY OR KNOW THE RIGHT PEOPLE YOU ARE NOTHING. YOU WOULD NOT THINK THIS JUNK HAPPENS IN CHURCHES BUT IT DOES.
I HAVE TO HONEST HERE, I HAS COME TO THE POINT TO WHERE I EVEN QUESTION MY FAITH. MAYBE ITS ME MAYBE IM NOT HOLY ENOUGH. OR PRETTY ENOUGH. OR WHATEVER. MY BIGGEST HURTS IN LIFE HAVE COME THROUGH THE CHURCH. WHY SHOULD I TRY AGAIN. IF THE CHURCH REJECTS ME MAYBE GOD DOES TOO WHO KNOWS I DONT KNOW ANYMORE.
I AM TIRED OF BEING ALONE ALL THE TIME. TIRED OF TRYING TO MAKE FRIENDS AND BEING REJECTED.
I KNOW I HAVE FRIENDS HERE ON THE BLOGS BUT SOMETIMES I WOULD JUST LIKE TO MEET SOMEONE FOR COFFEE OR SOMETHING. I LOVE MY CYBER FRIENDS I REALLY DO. PLEASE DON'T TAKE ME WRONG. BUT ELECTROIC FRIENDS DO NOT TAKE THE PLACE OF ONE ON ONE FELLOWSHIP.
I AM IN A DARK PLACE RIGHT NOW. VERY DARK...
Monday, January 26, 2009
UPDATE ON TIM AND A MAJOR DECISION I HAVE MADE
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Mary,
I understand what you are goimg through with church.
Maybe we can converse on e-mail.
Don't let the enemy question allow you to question your faith. Thats his MO.
E-mail me if you want to chat.
Perhaps this is a transition period for you. God may want to keep you all for Himself to do a new work in your life. Trust Him. These are times to seek Him even more. Sometimes He takes away all our securities for a purpose.
E-mail me if you'd like.
Chosen
WOW..I am tired...
Don't let the enemy succeed in having you question your faith...now that better!
He wouldn't even let me have that sentence make any sense!
Goodnite and God Bless!
Chosen
Just got word..Tim is awake again and has been since yesterday i just did not know. and since he has no insurance the hospital is wanting him out. and he has no where to go. it is a long story i really dont feel like writing out. but we willhave to see. they cant just put h im on the street. his wife is staying somewhere but where she is they said Tim is not welcome...very long story just pray.
Mary, I love you. I love your honesty.
I am praying for you and I will share your concerns with my small group. They all have so much compassion for you because they have all been beat up and rejected by folks in church too.
I will be praying that a friend will come alongside of you where you live to lift you up, make you laugh and share your burdens.
You are so very dear.
Barton
UGM
Mary: Don't give up on fellowship. Just be yourself and go to church. God will give you friends and you will form wondereful relationships. Anyone who takes the time to get to know you will be blessed!
Thanks Okie,
I don't feel that way right now I feel like the worse person in the world. well anyway, I love all of yo my cyber friends I really do.
hang in there Mary. Weeping lasts for the night but joy comes in the morning.
Pastor S
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