TESTAMONY PART TWO

I stayed with the nuns for two years. Like I said they were good to me but real strict, I never went to church services because I was not Catholic and my cousin told them not to make me go if I did not want to. By this time my Aunt had called my mom and told her that my cousin had me but she was not going to tell where I was, My mom said that she was just glad to know I was safe. I think if she really cared about my safety she would of done something about it, Later in life she told me what could I do he said he would harm the rest of us if we said anything To me that was not a good answer, I would of gotten my child and got out of there, I stayed with the Nuns for two years when I was 15 I left there and went back to Detroit, found myself living with some Hells Angels. No I never became a biker, but they took good care fo me, and never ever did anything to me , They put me through school and also Music School and then the University Of Michigan where I got my masters in music,

When I was twenty five my mom called me and said my dad was dying and he wanted to see me, I did not want to go, but John who was one of the Hells Angels said you need to go maybe you will hear what you always wanted to hear and that is for him to say he was sorry for what he had done, Well I went and when I went in to see my dad he motioned for me to come near his bed so I did and he said I just want you to know I will hate you to my grave, . I never understood and still don't understand why he hated me, what could a child do to make someone hate them that bad, I was three or so when all this stuff started to happen, what could I have done,

Well after 25 years of not going to church , I finally went back once I moved to California I went to Calvary Chapel In Aliso Viejo California where Danny Bond was the pastor. and after being there for several years and becoming a part of the church again, I found out that Danny was beating his wife and a abusive man, well I got out of there, Then from there I went to Calvary Laguna where Joe Sabolick was the Pastor and after really being involved there Joe was removed for stealing money and being in appropreat young girls.

Well I was never going to go to church again, by this time I just thought all pastors were jerks, starting with my dad, Now I do go to a church here in San Clemente, where the pastor here Chris Gleason has really tried to help me, he set me up with counseling with a Grief Counselor a long with counseling with Chris I am now trying to find forgiveness in my heart for all these people .

Awhile back ago, I was sent some old home movies of the abuse my dad actually filmed it and it made me wonder who was holding the camera and now I know it was my mom,

GOD HELP ME TO FORGIVE

That is where my journey is now the road to forgiveness and this is what I will post from now on.